My Feet 4/15/08

Bright lights shining on your face.
The music starts your feet start to move.
You feel the floor beneath  your feet.
It's just you and the dance floor.
The music stops you take a bow.
The Crowd cheers, you smile to yourself.
Cause they think that it was you.
They think you danced this dance.
But you know it was just your feet.
Going with the rhythm.

Like A Piece Of Trash 4/03/08

He reduced me into a pile of nothingness.
He reused me and played with my heart again.
He recycled me and forgot once me.
I feel like a piece of trash.
He just threw me away.
Next he may just throw me on the ground,
so some other guy can walk all over me.

This Could've Been You 4/01/08

Your friend calls you up,
Asking if you want to go out.
You say no, you had a feeling.
For some reason you shouldnt go.
You sit at home, watch a movie, wishing you had went.
The next day you go to school.
Your friend isn't there.
People are crying, your mind starts to rush.
You walk into class a news paper sits on your desk.
A shocking headline "TWO TEENS DIE IN A CAR CRASH"
You dont even have to read the names. You know. You start to cry.
It was your friend.
This could have been you.
You could have died.
But that feeling kept you away.
You realize this feeling was God.
Telling you to make the right choice.

These Scars Remind Me 4/01/08

These scars I make deep on my wrists,
Are to remind me of what you did.
How you broke my heart over and over again.
Each time I document it onto my arm.
For you can't see the scars you made,
On my broken heart made of glass.

The Note Pinned To Her Heart 4/01/08

Swinging back and forth
Hanging from a rope, her body is limp.
Pinned to her chest is a letter she wrote before she ended her life.
"Dear Mother, dear father,
This is not your fault.
To all my friends: This isn't your doing either.
This is my choice. I didn't belong here.
I belong nowhere. So I will no longer exist.
He said I was useless. That he never loved me.
So why exist at all?
He said I should die as he hit my face.
That I was ugly. That I had no one.
I couldnt get away so I ended it all.
I pin this note to my heart to show I died for love.
Or what they call love. To me it no longer exists.
Which is why I no longer live."

I Belong To God 4/1/08

I won't let him get to me for I am yours and thats right where I belong.
Right here in your arms.
I wont let him whisper lies into my ear.
But I'll let you, God, speak truth into me.
I trust you God for I can tell you anything.
And I do not belong to him.
He didn't make me. You did.
You created me into who I am today.

In My Own World 4/1/08

I cut my wrist with a popsicle stick.
The sky is falling up instead of down.
What an odd thing that is.
I feel as if nobodys listening so I'll make them listen.
By saying these crazy things.
Like how my little purple bird flew around in the ocean today.
The sky is green. The grass is blue.
In this little world of mine.
No one sees it but me.
My world is wack and I'm three inches tall.
But I can touch the stars and collect them all.
In this world anything can talk.
So here in my world I am not alone.

Used and Confused 3/29/08

I felt used.
Like my heart had been abused.
But time went by,
And my heart would cry.
I fell back into his trap.
He knew my heart like a map.
They all told me,
But I was blind and couldnt see.
He had me in his arms.
He used his skillful charms.
He broke my heart once more.
I was a dead body washed ashore.

You With Her 1/3/08

How can this be?
You with her and without me.
When you are not near.
The world stops turning my heart turns dark with fear.
And seeing you with her
Makes my heart stop but your smile is the cure.
I want you to be happy.
Even if it means my life is crappy.

All Planned Out 1/3/08

What does the future hold for me?
Who am I destined to be with?
Whom shall I love? What choices do I make?
Only God knows whats in store for me.
And as long as I have him I'll be okay.
Then things will fall into place just as he planned for me.

The Sad Song

What do you do when you feel alone and darkness creeps in?
And the world seems to be collapsing, love doesn't seem to exist anymore.
The world seems to be whispering about you.
My heart has to many cracks and bruises to get hurt again.
My eyes have cried their last tears.
There are none left for you.
There are to many problems to let another cross.
I have no more words to be spoken.
There are to many to listen to.
I just need myself, my broken heart,and my dried up tears.
My heart is to fragile now to let another guy smash it into a thousand pieces.
I need to be picked up again.
Cause Ive fallen hard on the ground.

The Path 12/16/07

Hopes and dreams that will one day come true.
A path lies ahead not knowing where it goes.
There is a fork in the road, two paths to fallow.
The lord will help me choose.
To choose the one that leads to him.
There will be many choices and challenges.
But I will face  them and fallow my lord to the heavens above.

Best Friend 12/07/07

Threw all my pain and tears, threw all my fear.
All my broken hears, you were there for me.
We laugh together, cry together.
We sing those silly songs together.
We are there for each other and always will be.
When someone ripped my heart into pices you were there to comfort me.
When I needed something good in life you were there to make me laugh.
When I needed someone to take my anger out on you were there for me to yell at.
And when I needed a shoulder to cry on you were there with arms open wide.
You are my best friend, someones who's always there.
To tell me streight forward, to say boys are stupid.
To tell me the honest truth, to make me smile.

What Is Love? 11/27/07

Is it something that just happens?
Does it mean you'll do anything for them?
I think I;m in love. I think I was before.
A long, long time ago.
But now I'm wondering what love really is.

My Little Prayer 11/21/07

I pray for the broken hearts.
The broken homes, broken lives, broken dreams.
I pray for the tears,The words and the screams.
Amen.

Him and Him 11/10/07

Why does love hurt so much?
I want to stop loving one guy.
I like another a lot.
But I don't know how I can love him.
If I can't stop loving the other.
What if I get a boyfriend,
And I can't stop thinking
Of the guys I can't stop thinking of?!

Take My Hand 11/10/07

Take my hand or walk away.
It's as simple as yes or no.
To be or not to be mine.
Yes, it may sound greedy.
But I need to know that I'm your number one.
So I can make you mine.

Forgive and Maybe Forget. 11/08/07

I loved you. Its as simple as that.
You broke my heart, and I turned my back.
I finally forgave you.
For I could never hate you.
But when I trusted you, You broke it again.
Once more I was able to forget all of my regret.
Once more it was broken.
And you leave me crying on the floor.
Because of you I went threw pain.
All I can say is I love you.

Why I Love You 11/07/07

Your eyes, your mouth, your gental touch.
Your sweet smile, and scense of humor.
The way you laugh, the way you talk.
How you hold my hand and hold me close.
These are the reasons why I love you.
Yet there are more. An endless list.

The Disguise 10/31/07

Heart beats, Heart paces
You go, Keep running.
Hide pain. Smile big.
Pain within sinking in.
Hold on, Keep trying.
Be yourself for a moment.
Slow down. Breathe now.
Calming down, Yet slowly dying.
No more, No tears.
All gone there's no more.
The real me gone, Goodbye.
Now I'm just the disguise.

Someday 10/27/07

Everyone keeps telling me that you and I belong together.
But you are there and I am here.
Perhaps in the future we can be together again.
But for now we'll admire from a distance.
Not that we can see each other,
But we can admire each others personality.
The way we talk on the phone, The letters we send.
But maybe, just maybe, we can be together again.

That Boy 10/22/07

Why did you have to come and change my life forever?
Why did I have to break your heat?
Why did you have to leave and go forever?
Why do I still love you after all the drama?
Why does my heart keep pointing to you when you are so far away?
Why do you have to be that boy that just wont get out of my head?

A Place For You 10/15/07

Seeing you again made me realize how much I love you.
Even though you broke my heart  there will always be a place for you.
Now I have someone mending my heart one piece at a time.
But maybe in the future there will be a place for you again.

I am 9/30/07

I am
I am annoying. I'm immature.
I'm hyper, I am Happy.
I am hopeful.
You may be jealous.
You may hate me.
Or maybe you're just like me.
The important thing is that I am who I am.
I don't have to pretend to be something I'm not.

I'm Sorry 4/5/07

I'm sorry.
Sorry I broke your heart.
Sorry I tore it into two.
I'm sorry that you now have her,
Instead of me.
I'm sorry I did this to us.

Your Story date unknown

Everyone has a story.
A story of pain, a story of happiness.
You can have more then one or just one big story of your life.
Everyones stories are important to our lord and saviour.
He want to hear them.
So get down on your knees, ask for forgivness.
For all the wrong you've done.
And the pages will be clean.
Only good is there now.
Only happiness.

Young with a child date unknown

She fell into his trap. He lured her. Had her like a fish caught in a net. She gave in, now look at what she has. A little baby boy without a dad. She crys every night while holding her son. And she prays to god to help her threw. To give her baby the life she never had. She was so young and with a child. So she dropped out of school. She got a job and barley made the year. Until she met a boy who loved jesus with all his heart. And he loved her, even her son. and they all loved each other.

What you didnt know date unknown.

There on the street
A bum lays at your feet
you dont stare
you really dont care
you put change in his cup
Then go, speeding up
But what you didnt see
Behind the tree
was a little boy
who didnt even have a toy.
who just wanted a home that was good
Just as any boy should.

What daddy did date unknown

You were young but you still remember. You remember the pain he brought. He never touched you but oh, how he'd hit her, your mother. You remember one night more then the rest. They were fighting. Father yelling, Mother crying. You peaked out of our room and saw him smack her. You didnt make a sound. He picked up a vase and bashed her in the head. You start to cry as mother falls to the floor. You sneak out your window and your neighbor sees you there. She takes you inside and crys "What have you done?!" That night daddy went to jail. He's still there to this day. And you never saw your mother or father after that day.

Scars we make Date unknown

You all go on as if it was a normal day.
But you all know his life was taken away.
Its all our fault we would tease and make fun.
Everyday he'd stay silent. He'd never run.
We would throw him a joke, make fun of his looks
We never knew it would be his life we took.
He couldn't take it so he grabbed a blade.
Put it to his wrist. A gash is what he made.
We are who did it. We all  turned his heart black.
Now we are sorry when he cant come back.

Those Three Words date unknown

The sound of those words you're saying to me
They are like music to my ears.
Every time you say it my heart beats fast.
I pray these words are true.
I know I feel the same way.
Its impossible not to know.
Its amazing how three little words can mean so much.
Apart they are weak but when you put them together they are powerful.

Spring Love date unknown

Morning dew
Cold and wet
Fresh air
Nature's breathe
My love for you
Like a newly sprung bud
That will bloom into a flower
In just awhile
With red soft petals
And that sweet, sweet smell
It will bloom so nicly
Then whither away
Or maybe not
Maybe you will stay
Like the sun in the sky
That shines so bright
The warm feeling
You get all over
Yes, maybe you are the sun
You won't wither away
At least not soon
Yes our love is the sun
The bright gold flower
That will never die

Save Him date unknown

You hear them laugh at him.
Shh, don't say a word.
You see him look away.
Shh, don't make a sound.
You see them hurt him.
Go, and walk away.
You see him crying now.
Turn and run away.
"Go and help him!!"
Your head screams.
"Go, and save him!
You can rescue him!"
"No!" another voice whispers,
"You can't do a thing.
It won't make a difference.
He is only a freak.
What about your reputation?
What about your friends?"
"None of that matters,
you can help him."
So you go and tell them,
to leave this boy alone.
And you made a difference,
you saved a life.

Princess date unknown

I want to be a princess,
no matter how childish it sounds.
I want to wear a tiara,
and be looked upon with awe.
But then again,
I am a princess.
To my father in heaven.
And he sees me as beautiful, and looks upon me with awe.
For he is my creator.
He sculpted me as I am.
He had me in his head,
before i was born.
He watched me grow up,
into the princess I am today.
He will love me always,
and think of me this way.
He even knows,
who my prince charming is even if I don't.
But sooner or later, he'll show me.

Original date unknown

Artificial.
That's what you are.
A fake.
Unoriginal.
You put makeup on your face,
to cover up the flaws.
You wear cloths you hate
to look like everyone else.
And if someone is different,
you laugh and make fun.
But, everyone is beautiful in God's eyes.
And everyone is different,
even if they don't show it.
Don't try to be something you're not.
Just be yourself,
no matter what anyone says.
Because you are beautiful.

Mysteries date unknown

So many mysteries in this big world.
Some we can solve, some we never will.
Like, why are so many hearts smashed into pices?
Why are so many lives destroyed?
When my heart is broken,
I know who can fix it.
My father in the heavens above.
He takes care of me.
He will never break my heart into pieces.
For he is my daddy up in the heavens.
The one and only I can certainly trust.

My Heart date unknown

My heart starts to pound,
every time I hear your name.
My heart skips a beat,
when you have to leave.
My heart almost can't take it,
when you say you love me.
And when you kiss me,
my heart stops;
And I fly high
as if I am on a cloud.

Mask of Beauty date unknown

People look up to you.
For your brains, your beauty.
But few know your pain.
Pain of a broken home.,
of a broken heart.
Pain of a broken dream,
of a broken family.
But you go on as if nothing's wrong.
You put on your mask everyday,
cause you don't want them to see.
Cause if they can see,
they'll rip you apart.
They'll spread rumors and lies.
You can no longer face the pain.
You can no longer live a lie.
So you lift your troubles up,
to the God you know is real.
He tells you "None of it matters,
I will protect you,
I am all you need."

Love date unknown

I don't see his flaws.
I don't see his mistakes.
all I can see is our love for each other.
And we are the only ones here.
He is the only one speaking.
I can live like this forever.
Here in his arms.
He mended my broken heart.
I know this is love,
at least I think it is.
But if this is what it feels like,
to be in love.
Then me, I never want it to go away.

Lies date unknown

You go on each day
Pretending to be something you're not.
You lie to everyone's face,
and soon it spreads, like a cancer,
overtaking everything.
Your lies can't stop now.
And I know the truth.
Your words, your life,
and your feelings for me.
They were all lies.
And I'm done.
Done with you,
your life, your fake love.
I'm done with your lies.

I Still Love You date unknown

Even though you are away,
I still love you.
Even though you broke my fragile heart of glass,
I still love you.
Even though you took of and didnt even call
I still love you.
and even though you dont even notice,
I'm still in love.
And I believe that I always will be,
In love with you.

It Keeps Going date unknown

The world turns
it never stops
Not just the earth itself
but those who are on it.
Always moving, never stopping.
never stopping to
appreciate what God has given us.
I want to stop,
and appreciate his gift.
To smell the roses,
and live my life for God.
Not for myself. Not for others.
But the world can finally slow down,
and give their love to God.
Just as he has given to us.

I Need You date unknown

Hold me close. Hold me tight.
I just need someone to wipe away my tears.
To tell me everything will be okay.
I need a shelter, I need a friend
I need someone to tell me "I love you."
I need you.
Please help me through all this pain.
Someone to save me from all my worries.
I need God to lift these weights off my shoulders.
You God, only you.

Home Isn't Where My Heart Is date unknown

They say "Home is where the heart is."
but your heart is inside of you.
And what if you are not comfertable with ho you are inside?
And all you want is change?
A change of looks. A change of style.
A change of personality.
A change of lifestyle.
So maybe Home
Isn't where the heart is.

Half Full date unknown

You may see the glass half empty,
I see it half full
I'm Miss Positive
The one to brighten up your mood.
But yet that doesnt mean Im always happy
For even positive people,
can have a negitive day.
I  know with God everything will be okay.
What gets me is why people are so sad.
People need their faith.
To let their lights shine, and finally be happy
for who God created them to be.

Go date unknown

Go, move on.
Run! Run!
Keep going.
You can make it.
You can hide.
Or can you?
No!
You can't run from problems.
You can't run from pain.
But you can lift it to God.
He'll take them away
Cause all you need is him.
And nothing else.

The Future For Me And You

When I look in your eyes
I stop breathing.
And when you give me that crooked smile,
My heart beats fast.
We barley know each other,
but I feel something there.
Something between us
that can turn out wonderful.
Maybe in the future,
we can see what this means
but for now
we can learn about each other.
And not worry about
The future.

The Brighter Light date unknown

It's so dark
and oh so cold.
But when I believe
I see that bit of light.
My heart starts to warm
and the more I get to know you,
The brighter the candle burns...
and the warmer my heart gets.
For I love you my father in heaven.
You make me smile
like no one else can.
And you hold me tight
so that I know I'm protected.
I just want to say thanks,
for being here,
for crating me,
and helping me me become
who I am today.

Breaking Through Coming Out date unknown

Braking through my chains of distress.  
Through my sorrow and hopelessness.
I'm breaking through and becoming free.  
Free from sadness and free from pain.
Free from everything within.
 I am breaking through, I am coming out.
And I'm coming for you
For you are the reason for all my misery.
F or this broken heart of mine,
That's slowly mending,taking it's time.  
These chains are no longer for me.
Neither are these weights or these bags on my shoulders.

The Blade

They are one.
The blade and him.
When he puts it to his wrist.
He pushes down,
It cuts deep.
But not as deep
As his other pain.
The pain of rejection.
The pain of depression.
His body starts to tingle.
And he gets a rush.
He starts to cry.
But not from the pain of the blade,
From the pain of his sorrows.
He stops the bleeding.
Puts the blade away.
He knows this  is wrong.
Yet he does it again.
And the cycle continues.
Until he finds a gun,
Puts it to his head
So they are one.

Another Slap Another Bruise date unknown

Slap across the face.
And you've done nothing wrong.
Another black eye
To start the week with.
 You go on like nothing happened
You don't tell a soul.
Your report card comes in.
When he sees it he yells.
He pushes you around
Slams you against the wall.
You cry "I'm sorry!!" 
But it doesn't matter.
He hits you once more,
And you fall to the floor.
The next day you're in the hospital.
Friends come to see you.
You don't tell what really happened.
But what you didn't know,
Is that the girl next door saw it all.
And she prays for you at night,
For you to be okay.

A Change In My Life date unknown

Things are going to be different.
Things are going to change.
I'm going to live my life for God
And today is the day.

Teach me to be more like you.
Teach me to grow up right.
I want to be different
And I want to be the change.

I just want you God,
And only you .
To help me live my life,
As I should.

Dont Lock the door 9/13/08

Why ababdon him Instead of fallow?
Leave him your creator, Just to be something you're not.
 Why not listen to his words?
Instead off shutting him out of your heart.
No matter how many locks you have on the door
he's still there
but evil is trying to make its way in.
Don't shut the door on God,
But lock out the evil.
He is speaking...open your ming and your heart

the unnamed poem

 Okay so some of you may read my other blog and Ive posted poems on there before and the first few on As The Dryer Tumbles are from Thoughts and flowers so bare with me.

The Unnamed Poem

when the tears flow south
and the white rose shows
at the speed of light
and the moments too slow
as the rivers flow
and the flowers bloom
i will forever
and always love you